I was watching an episode of Keeping Up with the Kardashians on just how much Kourtney (one of the Kardashian sisters) seemed to be very indecisive about just about everything. See, she had gotten used to depending on her partner Scott’s decisions, and now that they had separated, most decisions fell on her.
I tend to think I am that way in some ways. Rather, I was that way, since I have had to learn to make decisions on my own.
Over the past few months, I have had to make decisions concerning just about everything in my life. There are times when I have had sleepless nights tossing and turning about what to decide on. Just because I feared making the decision.
You see, I have always weighed my options before eventually deciding, but this wasn’t working for me as I would eventually push the choices away. I had been comfortably living each day as it came, pushing any thoughts that I had decisions to make.
Every time you would ask me what I thought about a specific matter, I would tell you my thoughts and add “…but then again, I don’t know…” It became clear that this was not going to work for me as people (my beau especially) would easily get fed up with this problem of indecisiveness I had.
Well, I am not there yet because I sometimes still find myself having a really hard time deciding, but being able to ask for an opinion from someone else concerning what I have to decide on, has really helped in my decision making.
“I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn’t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.” – Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar.
When faced with lucrative opportunities, and you have to choose one, it becomes almost mandatory that you make up your mind. Because if you do not, you will lose all the opportunities that were at your disposal just a few moments ago.
Many times, our indecision is our downfall. When you are unable to make up your mind on what exactly you want to do, each day passes until your thoughts become just that…Thoughts. Other times, our indecision can lead us to make rush choices that have not been clearly thought of. Remember that choices have consequences, and the choices we make will always have an impact in our lives.
Towards the end of the Keeping Up with the Kardashians episode, Kourtney decided that in the course of indecision, it is better to go with what your heart is telling you to do, rather than going with what your head is telling you to do.