Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?
I once got into this relationship that seemed promising at the time. I mean, I had just joined my second year of uni and I met this guy, and we connected, almost immediately. Not to sound cliché, but it was a match made in heaven. I was 19 then.
A few months later, cracks began to show. But being the ever optimistic girl I am, I was like, “This will pass.” What I didn’t know is that I should have addressed my inner feelings. The ones that would make me think and add one plus one which in most case wasn’t adding up to two.
I was probably scared of how life would turn out to be without ‘my perfect guy’ in the picture. Well, one thing led to another, and for some reason, we cut ties. Almost instantly. There was no talk about us needing to go our separate ways. It just happened. No good-byes, no nothing.
I was hurt.
Fast forward to about five years now, I have found myself in many situations where I am scared of being hurt.
The few risks I have taken in terms of allowing myself to be hurt (Mahatma Gandhi put it very well when he said no one can hurt him without his permission, same applies to me 😉 have been quite painful to say the least, but looking back, they have made me grow.
Peace is a daily, a weekly, a monthly process, gradually changing opinions, slowly eroding old barriers, quietly building new structure.
Me being hurt is putting myself in solitude and coming out stronger. I am finding tranquility not necessarily in being hurt, but as a result of being hurt.
This is the point where I let go and let God, in the sense that I know I can do nothing about it, and so the only option I have is to let it be in the hands of my Maker.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Everything happens for a reason. Hurt is as human as to breathe.
I am now less fearful of being hurt because my wounds gradually heal. Every experience has been a lesson. In my tranquility, I have been able to do some of the things I kept on procrastinating.
Inner peace has helped me connect with myself at a deeper level, and kept me away from the hustle and bustle of everyday struggles to make ends meet. It is very normal. Trust me it is good for the soul.