The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity. The fears are paper tigers. You can do anything you decide to do. You can act to change and control your life; and the procedure, the process is its own reward.
Guys, I am quite frankly writing this post for myself, just as much as I am doing it for you.
I have had months and months of going back and forth in terms of whether I should do it, or not.
See, when it comes to many of life’s major decisions, I think, re-think, and think some more. I at times usually have it well figured out in my life until snap! I realize it may not be as easy as it seems to be. Then I back out.
Problem with me is, every time I set my mind on making a decision on a specific matter, no matter how long it takes me to finally make it, I will make it in the end. It just keeps eating and eating until the day I make it and finally feel better about it all.
About two years plus ago, I graduated from uni. And like everyone’s expectation (including mine), a job was to follow next. People, when you hear about tarmacking, it’s real. Luckily, I started this online thingy that has really picked up for me. However, I had always wanted to move to a different city. Maybe because practically all my life, I have been in the same city.
Also, C was in the city I wanted to move to (if you know, you know ?). So here I was, having graduated, no job and feeling helpless because well, the only way for me to move was if I had a job. I had no job, and this thought kept nudging at me. C had to make frequent trips to come see me, a thing that became strenuous for us (distance and fare).
Anyway, I eventually got an internship in the city and moved. Boy! You should have seen me. I was excited. I mean, everything was just aligning for me.
To this day, the decision to move even though I didn’t know how things would turn out, was the best for me.
You write your life story by the choices you make. You never know if they have been a mistake. Those moments of decision are so difficult.
Here I am again, thinking of a different venture to undertake. Now this, I have no idea how it will work out, but well, it’s something I believe is for the best. There comes a time when I feel like backing out, but I always have to remind myself that this is the best decision for me.
I have had moments where I am asking myself: “What will so and so say?”
Even as I post this, I cannot really tell what the future holds…
Am I the only one who feels disturbed before making a life-changing decision?